Life is fairly good recently. Learning many many new things, achieving handful of opportunities, meeting various of interesting and motivated ppl.

 

Just finished a trainning and take the free break to write this blog. Havn't been updated about my life for sooo long, I think it is the right time to pick it up again, to keep adding thoughts from time to time and encourage myself to think and never get lazy in my head. That's what makes it keep moving, the way leads you to a diversified and boarder sense of satisfaction.

 

I am kind of pull myself out there again. It isn't that difficult as I imagined, now I started to discover a broader world, as I always did before. I used to think he would become that little harbour I can lay myself in, however it is again another stop, glamorous but instant, it is another beautiful piece, which shouldn't have made me depressed but turns into something makes up my memorable youth.

 

Yes, I still miss everything. Missed the whole thing and every touch moment ever. I liked him not only because he is goodlooking, cheerful, attractive but also smart, kind-hearted, motivated and vivid. He has created so many beautiful memories and these are definitely things I should cherish in my heart but not to be obsessed just because it can not last anymore.

 

Both of us know it can only go this far. I have been sad only because the role trasition is heartbreaking, and I need more time to deal with myself.

 

Now I think I am fine, I can look at your eyes and say let's be friends and still care about each other. From now on, I will become a more mature girl, to love more ppl around me and let them feel I do care about them, and it wont change just because of one single person or one relationship.

 

There are many things been put back into my agenda, many things to learn and many destinations to discover. I still miss it when I was travelling around the world, just book the ticket, take my bag and go. I miss the braveness and independence and I am getting them back now step by step.

 

Almost my last week at the St. Regis. Time is flying so fast, I should be grateful about what I have gained here, for not seeing things from only one perspective but the whole picture, many management skills and first hand working experience, made me turly understand business and how to make things happen. Thank you so much H., you are the best boss ever who is tolerant, patient, generous and encouraging. I always have  a red heart for German ppl because you guys gave me the best memories.

 

Really looking forward to what is going to come, and ofcourse with all my efforts. I believe I have the capability, to become someone better, and never let you down.

 

Keep walking and move forward. Be recharged and get it going. And this is how it should feel. (The slogan by "WESTIN")

 

 

过了快一年才再次回到这里，已经长草长地不成样，今天闲暇时翻看自己之前写的博客，回顾曾经的生活，那些陪在自己身边的人，感觉就像发生在昨天一样。

 

生活是残酷的，每天都有不同版本的相似故事在上演，职场里的残酷厮杀，生活中的变幻无常，身边的人来人往，需要随时忘记或者改变的习惯。越麻木越不快乐，越清醒又越无助，很多事情如果一开始便知道没有结果，是不是我真的要back off连过程都不要去享受。

 

仿佛大家都把婚姻当成避风港和一个终点，但是，真的找到了那个人就幸福了么？还是有那么多悲剧，在天天发生着。又或者，这种心态让我永远都找不到幸福。

 

越想忘记你，你的面容就越清晰；越想放弃因为你而养成的习惯，那些细节越是深刻地钻进我心里。走过那么多的街道，看过那么多的风景，说过那么多的话，包括手机里的短信，邮箱里的每一封邮件，相机里的每一张照片，又要再一次慢慢地褪成回忆。

 

这一次我真的累了。需要找一个安稳的地方停靠。尽管我不后悔曾经享受这个过程，但是对于不能计划的将来，除了难过，就剩下无奈。

 

前天北京下了一场好大的雪。仿佛冬天已经提前来到了。最让人绝望和沮丧的季节。但是还是要好好生活下去，谢谢散落天涯的你们给我的鼓励，是你们给了我坚持下去的力量和决心。